Breaking

I wonder what the current score is.  How many interactions have I won?  How many have I lost?  Who has a strategic edge in any given circumstance?  It shouldn't be like this, but with so many moving particles, just hardly bumping one another, a deeper relationship is hard to foster.  We fall into hierarchies.  Is this a threat, can I allow myself to put down my defenses?  On or off, with shades of curiosity and introspection on long commutes, but rarely significant interaction.  Why should I take offense, why should another be offended?  We rarely have a chance to ask this of ourselves or others, being so caught up in the act of it.  The inertia of a city is hard to to lean into, but at the same time, why not?  We are all quite anonymous here.