Dovetailing

I am really interested in developing a studio of students one way or another.  Teaching at the school in Harlem is getting more and more fluid, but I dream of having a private studio.  Flyers are made to invite potential teachers of young children, and possible locations have been scouted to put them.  Tomorrow would be the day except that as of this afternoon I learned I will be having an interview for a teaching position somewhere downtown.  I didn't actually apply and it isn't much time to prepare but I'm ready to take whatever I can, even the experience of interviewing, of collating my thoughts about how I think about teaching.  

There are so many opportunities in this world, and it is exciting to mingle with them, but can also sometimes feel disorienting.  I sometimes miss the solemn loneliness of days in Japan.  And though "solemn" and "lonely" are not words that would often be associated with childhood, I feel them in this way in regards to Japan.  I felt like a child there in my solemnity and solitude.  There was something simple and centered, free of thoughts and urges, other than those which continued to vibrate from my former western life.  

I wonder if New York will be the final place I live.  Something in me imagines that there will be another location somewhere.  But I wonder what will trail off from it.  Will I miss this impetus to create, this drive to be involved and interact in the world around me, to do whatever I wish to do, to be willing to be stressed for those around me?  What I am learning from New York?  And how will I continue to learn from Japan?